lurking leads to heart break.

i found myself on the page of an old friend. she was more than an old friend. she was family. she was what little i had to lean on. she was everything i was missing.

i don't know why it had to end the way it did. it was immature. we were always so on and off, but god, we both knew after that fight that the lights would forever be dimmed.

as far as myspace goes i'm glad to see you're okay. it seems as if you've finally embraced your appearance. i remember the talks we use to have of our insecurities and i remember just how sullen your tone of voice when get when you'd talk about your imperfections. i'd tell you, i'd tell you that you were crazy! that you were an attractive girl. it would just take some time for you to really see that.

we knew eachother in and out. your secrets, my secrets, our families secrets, our secrets that came naturally with being girls.

it was only a matter of time until we would grow apart. i wish i could just spill to you all of my new secrets being the woman i now am. i'd spill them into the tightly sealed vessel you've always been. i'd spill them and feel secure in knowing that you wouldn't repeat another word of it.

if time travel were possible, i'd fix everything. i'd fix it all.