interesting.

my blog will be a year old in a few weeks. i had no clue.

today.

today was busko's niece's first birthday. his brother and sister-in-law had a small family gathering at a place called vince's pasta and pizza. it had an arcade area so achilles had fun. he kept asking busko for tokens and it went a little something like this..

achilles- daddy, i want money!

busko- here. *hands achilles token*

me- might as well get used to it now.

hah. i really like this age. developmentally he's so funny! i love his mannerisms and the way he talks. i could skip out on the tantrums though. in your upper left corner, there is achilles on christmas morning, trying on a vest his Lola Menchie got him. that kid cracks me up.

i love him.

it's like a big fuck you.

you reach out to people, but they constantly turn you down.

and WTF. something just fell onto the floor and i am hella scared right now.

ANYWAYS, i'm back home from being in san jose for close to two weeks. san jose is fucking gay. there, i said it. the scene and vibe are different. maybe i'm getting old, but it's not for me. i hate that it doesn't feel like home anymore. i hate how everybody seems so fucking fake- so fucking the same.

fuck you and your skinny jeans, your brightly colored shirts, and side bangs. funny how this works for both the males and females, eh?

LANCASTER. is lame. that's true. there's not much here. BUT THAT'S WHY I LOVE IT! there is NO scene. everybody is on their own accord here. diversity is beautiful.

but i'm too old to be worrying about physical appearances. lord knows i've let myself go a little bit......

i'm really distraught. there's a lot going on. i've lost faith in religion and God a long time ago, but i'm needing something right now. i'm needing a little more. there is only so much i can do. oh God, please forgive me.

all i can do is keep my nose in my damn books, keep my pen tightly intertwined through my fingers and write......

i am so sick.

merry christmas, by the way.

it feels a little different.

So I'm here at my aun't pad, babysitting her munchkin. The weather in San Jose is the sucks. It's rainy and glum, but not cold. Others will disagree, but the cold of the Antelope Valley is so much more frigid. I'm no stranger to the cold!

I mean, it literally bites at your bare skin when you walk out your door in the AV.

Ah, the AV- I think I've really learned to love and appreciate the area. So much so that San Jose just doesn't feel like home anymore. I'm laughing to myself at the moment because all of my friends at school told me this would happen.

"The Antelope Valley is cursed. You say you want to leave, but it keeps you right here!"

Maybe that's the case after all. I've been cursed. I've been bewitched. The AV is my home now. <3

Hmm. I've been eating a lot since I've been in San Jose. That's one thing I'll continue coming here for, the food! My family..let's just say sometimes I realize why I moved so far!! They're just the kind of people you get along with better when you're 300 miles away.

Christmas is a few days away. This is the first year I didn't make a wish list. I'm pretty content with life, plus, Busko got my long awaited pea coat for my birthday last month. Hah! I saw the bag he has my Christmas gift in and it's a MAC shopping bag. He's getting a lot better at this gift giving thing!!!!

OH, so I finished the fall semester off with a 4.0!! Final grades were posted today on our transcripts and you know your girl is STILL on that President's List. Holla holla.

Ah, the children cry for Barney. Until next time....

the Bay calls.

and I'm answering.

tomorrow I am going home for Christmas. I cannot wait! I just finished wrapping the last few gifts. I'm really happy with what I got everybody this year. I actually put some thought into it. I'm really bad at gift giving.

....I'm the person whoe gives pajamas, lotions, or candle sets every year. hahaha.

it will be nice to see the little brohams again. it will be nice to see family period! I haven't seen them for 3 months! I couldn't with my hectic semester.

oh! so you know your girl finished the semester with a 4.0. holllllaaaaaa. chemistry and math killed me, but I raped them. my communications teacher even offered me a position as a speech tutor for next semester!

I have a good 3 weeks before intersession starts. then it's an intense 5 weeks of material that should really be taught in 16 weeks. after I kill myself with that, a weekend later- spring semester starts! oh baby, give it to me.

I'm only taking one class in the spring, bio 201. unfortunately it has a 60% fail rate. I'd really like to entirely focus on that class, but the tutoring sounds really fun! plus, a little extra money! I could use it to pay my phone bill! hahaha.

my fucking sidekick3, I love you, but beyonce said I need to upgrade.

you know what? my contract for this phone ended in april. I just continued to pay towards its service because it was convenient. there's only one other phone I want and that's the sidekick lx. too bad the thing costs like 400 bucks, even with my upgrade! I cannot justify that. 400 dollars is like....a lot of shoes. lol

anyways, I'm packed and ready to go! we're leaving at approximately 9am, but we run on mexican time around here so it will be about 10am or 1030.

this blog was so fucking pointless, but it's my blog so it's cool. it's TOTALLY cool.

night night ya'll.

what what in the butt?

It is the end of the semester, word! Too bad it's that effing end of semester cram. It's kind of killing me this time around, but it's cool. Monsters and determination make it happen!

Next Thursday will be my last day and I'm off for a good 3 weeks! I'm heading up to San Jose that very Sunday until the 26th. It'll be nice to be home for a bit. I HELLA miss it! Just like I miss saying 'hella' without people laughing at me or giving me a confused face. Hella lame, they're lucky I don't bust out my entire Bay lingo on them with the riding the yellow bus, going dumb, and all that. Hahaha!

I will NEVER grow accustomed to SO CAL. I am a NOR CAL girl and always will be. Bet your ass I'll be back when I'm done with school!

SOOOOO, I watched the Twilight movie during one of its many midnight showings on its release date. As an avid Twilight fan I can say that the movie was okay. The acting was mediocore, but it was bearable. Yes yes, movies are never as good as the book. I know that, but I was expecting something a little more. It was a low budget movie, that probably explains it. Haha.

OH, Busko and I totally stood in line at 8:30 p.m to find a line that was already wrapped around the building! Luckily I had a friend who had a friend who lined up at 4p.m. I was a total savage about it and called my friend to give me her friend's number and I totally played cutsies. HAH. She was pretty close to the entrance too. Twilighters, UNITE!

DAMN. I am exhausted, mentally and physically exhausted. I have 4 finals next week and a fucking paper due. I would've had a speech to do for my communications class, but I begged my instructor to let me go this past Thursday. I totally killed it. Nobody wanted to go after me. GRADE A INTIMIDATION, MY FRIENDS.

"How am I supposed to go after that?"

This blog is kind of turning into a ramble, but that's okay. I really need to ramble right now. It soothes and my mind is in a thousand different places at the moment.

THE HOLIDAYS! The holidays are upon us! I've still a few people to shop for as far as gifts go. I'm sooo bad at gift giving. I mean kids, they're okay. Put something shiny in front of their faces and their good to go (SO JK), but adults..man, I give them all pajamas. Hahaha. But c'mon, who doesn't want a sweet new pair of pj's for Christmas??

If they've been really good, they'll get a pair of matching fuzzy slippers too.

Achilles, he's pretty much good to go for Christmas from me and Busko. I totally went black Friday shopping for his gifts. I came out pretty good actually! I got a $45 Hot Wheel set for $20 and a $60 Thomas the Train set for $15!! Not to mention, I also had his Wonderpets fly boat and Elmo Live hidden in our room. Speaking of Elmo Live, that damn thing is so life like! It's like the real Elmo! You should youtube a video. I probably bought it for myself now that I think of it.

Live vicariously through your children. It's totally acceptable.

I am SO tired. I don't even know why I even bothered with capitalization in this blog?? Shit, it's too hard to stop now. I should just put everything in MLA format while I'm at it, eh?